Here.

We've been through so much together. 

We've had our ups and downs. 

We've had some really low downs. 

We've been bent and broken. 

We've held on in the middle of hurricanes..

But I wouldn't trade one single day of this life I have with you. 

My life is full with you in it.

I am so blessed to be called yours. 

Every fight, every tear, every heartache leading up to now has been worth it. 

We've discovered who we are together. 

We've have been broken separately so we could be put back together as one. 

I was doing a simple every day house chore while listening to music and I heard this song. It caught me on a night that I was daydreaming of your homecoming. My mind still can't fully comprehend that we are just a few very short weeks from each other's arms. When I stopped and listened to the words of this chorus and the second verse, it's like I was speaking these words to you from my own heart. 

"Here"

-Rascal Flatts

There's a place I've been looking for

That took me in and out of buildings

Behind windows, walls and doors

And I thought I found it

Couple times, even settled down

And I'd hang around just long enough

To find my way back out

I know now the place that I was trying to

Reach

Was you, right here in front of me

[CHORUS]

And I wouldn't change a thing

I'd walk right back through the rain

Back to every broken heart

On the day that it was breakin'

And I'd relive all the years

And be thankful for the tears

I've cried with every stumbled step

That led to you and got me here, right here

It's amazing what I let my heart go through

To get me where it got me

In this moment here with you

And it passed me by

God knows how many times

I was so caught up in holding

What I never thought I'd find

I know now, there's a million roads

I had to take

To get me in your arms that way

[Repeat Chorus]

In a love I never thought I'd get to get to

-here

And if that's the road

God made me take to be with you

[Repeat Chorus]

And I'd relive all the years

And be thankful for all the tears

I've cried with every stumbled step

That led to you and got me here, right here

Oh, baby-Ooo

Oh, got me here

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I am yours. 

Always have been. 

Always will be.

Flowers from my lover

Hubby and I have together and separately made it a point to ensure this deployment goes smoother than the last one. Our first deployment was filled with bickering and just not-niceness!

Our age and maturity played a lot into that.

This time around is a lot different.

We've been together for 7 years now.

We're coming up on our 5 year wedding anniversary.

We have a family. One child and another on the way.

 

We just know each other better.

When we're needed.

When we need a break or breather.

When to respond and when to take a step back.

When to give each other space.

 

I'll be completely honest and say that makes all the difference in the world.

That's what makes this deployment slightly easier than the last.

I say slightly because it is a LOT harder than the last because now there are kids involved.

Kids make for a lot more heartache and missing you's.

 

Hubby has been gone for 3 months now.

He has done an incredible job of spoiling me.

 

I received flowers for Fall.

They were a beautiful arrangement of daisies, carnations and baby roses.

 

 

 And then for Veteran's Day...

I received the most amazing roses I have ever seen in my life!

Red, white, and blue long stemmed roses.

They arrived as buds so their beauty wasn't at it's peak.

However, each day that I have them they open a little more and become even more breathtaking. 

 

He is so amazing and giving.

Always ensuring that babygirl and I have everything we need and even want.

He goes above and beyond to spoil us.

I am so grateful for everything he does for us.

That's what makes the care packages we send so special.

It's the little things we can do for each other that mean so much when long distance is involved.

November 25, 2005

Seven years ago on this day I met you.

You walked into my life at the perfect moment.

The earth shifted and the stars aligned on this night.

Just two young people working seasonal jobs.

Not expecting anything.

 

But were given a fairy tale.

 

It hasn't been easy.

But oh, how it has been so worth it.

I'll look for you

"When we're apart I look for you.

In every part of my day.

I open each door and look around the corner secretly hoping you'll be there.

I know it's crazy for me to think you're more than a heartbeat away when there are so many miles between us.

But in the precious moments when we are together,

it's like the stars are perfectly aligned and everything is right with the world.

These moments are so incredible that when they've passed,

I can't get them or you off my mind.

So until the day comes when our time together outweighs our time apart,

I'll keep looking for you.

In every corner of my day.

With the sound of every footstep my heart will skip a beat,

longing for it to be you

and loving you more than ever."

One Year of Blogging

Happy Anniversary Learning to Be!!

Wow. This post was definitely supposed to go up a week ago. I had it scheduled for January 3. I'm not sure what happened but I apologize to the few of you who have gotten onto me about not posting!! Sorry!

Today marks one year since the start of this blog. I started it with a very different mindset. I planned on doing a 365 project. Yeah, that fell through at about day 45. It's too much pressure to demand a post

every.single.day.

Regardless, I am so happy that I have this blog.

As an outlet, a journal, a scrapbook.

I love recording things that will be available to my children.

I write in a journal to my daughter and plan to do that for the rest of my kids also but this is something public, funny stories or photos. My kids' journals are personal memories or notes that I write specifically to them.

But back to this guy here..

Happy Anniversary blogland!

I'm so glad to have made it this far and honestly enjoy writing every post.

I know there are days that I put up meaningless ramblings.

Silly photos and jokes.

Links to songs on YouTube.

There are days when I don't even post at all, due to writer's block.

And then there are the days that my posts circulate my online community.

Days that I receive hundreds of hits.

Links shared by my family members and friends.

To the posts written from my heart.

The posts that make people text me, saying I've made them cry that day.

These are the posts I love.

The posts that stem from a quiet thought hidden in my mind.

A nonspoken moment that I finally feel okay to share.

I don't blog for online fame.

I don't blog to gain followers.

I blog to share my heart.

Husband Week (part 5)

HUSBAND WEEK

Has anyone enjoyed this as much as I have?

Maybe just my husband.

He was saying a while back that I never mentioned him on the blog anymore.

Gotcha babe.

A whole week just for you. =)

Here is my last scrapbook entry.

Written April 21, 2008:

   So I definitely slacked off on writing in this. My last semester has been incredibly draining. I'm constantly busy and that takes a toll on us. I thought you were done with me. Never in a million years would I have guessed that the end of this deployment would be the hardest part. Many things have been said and done that are totally regrettable. I miss you with my everything and I am dying without you. I need you home with me because I truly am lost without you. You still want to talk and work things out but all it comes down to is the fact that I need to let myself go and trust you. Our marriage is officially about to begin because you will finally be here with me. I have to learn to let go and follow you, because you are my husband and you have never made a wrong decision concerning us. I love you with my everything and I am truly grateful every singe day that you never gave up on me and you fought for us over this past year. In only two weeks you will be here and I will finally be happy again. 

Don't let our squabbles, insecurities or stubbornness ever tear us a part.

You are my everything.

My heart.

My love.

My life.

I'd be completely lost without you.

Husband Week (part 4)

HUSBAND WEEK 

Written February 23, 2008:

   A whole year later and we are still just as crazy about each other as the day we met. I can't believe a whole year has gone by. Time really did fly. So much as happened. I am your wife! I am halfway done with college. And now you are close to coming home! 

   You are my everything and nothing can ever or will ever change that. Just do you know, I would go through a million deployments if I knew that in the end, I would always get to be in your arms. I love you forever and always, my cuppycake! 

In the scrapbook that I made while hubby was deployed I kept a bunch of mementos from our honeymoon. In one of the Ripley's museums we did this little fortune teller thing. 

It reads:

One of those rare brilliant marriages which only happens to the really fortunate seems to lie in store.

No wonder I chose to keep that.

And today's song with meaning..

We played this song at the wedding after we were announced husband and wife.

We started it at the chorus.

It meant so much to me.

Left and right we were being told that marriage wasn't the right choice.

We were too young.

We were in the middle of a deployment.

We should go to college first.

We should enjoy more of our youth.

We should wait.

A few more months... A few more years.

But

He is an answer to prayer.

He is my dream come true.

I could not ask for more. 

I wouldn't have changed anything.

Marrying my best friend was the best choice I have ever made in my whole life.

Husband Week (part 3)

HUSBAND WEEK

Written May 11, 2007:
   Your pass was amazing baby. I had so much fun being with you. Enduring the distance and time away from each other is all worth is when we get to say hello again. Each time I see you again for the first time, I get butterflies in my stomach. Time away and all the pain and heartache is all worth it when you give me that second or third 'first kiss.' 
   I love you with my everything and now I can officially countdown the days until this deployment is finally over.

That first kiss is always amazing.

It is always worth it.

No matter how long the separation.

Being a military wife, I get to experience the first kiss rather frequently.

Written January 2008:

   The month of December flew by. Everything was crazy. Final wedding plans were coming together and I didn't even care. I was only focused on you and that you were coming home to me! You got here and I bawled in your arms at the airport. I could not believe you were finally in my arms and that I could actually touch you. The first week you were home was nice, but crazy! We fought a little and it was all my fault because I was stressing over the wedding. Christmas was fun. But then came.. the wedding!

   It was everything I ever dreamed of as a little girl. I got to be the gorgeous fairy tale princess walking down the aisle to my hero. My Prince Charming stood before my eyes. Every second of our wedding was breath taking to me. My heart just about pounded out of my chest. Then we kissed. The preacher declared us husband and wife. Mr & Mrs. And I smiled. I smiled at you because you made all my dreams come true. You made me yours and I promised myself to you for the rest of my life. You gave me the whole world when you said I do. And I could not ask for more.

If you ask my husband what song I walked down the aisle to at the wedding

He wouldn't have a clue. 

He was too caught up in the dress to hear the music.

But this was the song.

Husband Week (part 2)

HUSBAND WEEK

I love reminiscing. 

Reading over old thoughts of mine.

When those thoughts include love and my hubby, 

It's just a reminder of why I fell in love with him in the first place.

Written May 3, 2007:
   So the days seem to drag on. I get to leave in just three days to visit you on your pass before you officially leave.  I'm really nervous about everything. The realization of you stepping foot on Iraqi soil frightens me. I think about you and your unit's safety constantly. You keep reminding me to not worry, but I do! 
   Lately I seem to take everything out on you and I sincerely apologize! So I know how much you wanted a ring or something before you left for Iraq and I finally got the funds to buy you one! But you found out about it and I was not happy, mister! I had it engraved 'Forever Yours' so that not only will you remember my promise to you, but that you will always have those words right there in front of you.
   I love you dearly baby. In a matter of days I will have conquered my fear of flying and will be in your arms!

You will always be my hot electronics boy.

Don't know that story? 

There's stalking involved.

And after school seasonal jobs.

Red shirts and khaki skirts.

Dropped stacks of bath towels.

Scanners to the eyes.

Broken Christmas bulbs.

And plenty of pretzels with cheese in the break room.

I will be posting music videos all week.
The songs all have meaning to me towards our relationship.

They are songs that instantly make me think of hubby, 

or are a memory of he and I.

Husband Week (part 1)

I have officially declared it

HUSBAND WEEK 

on this blog.

If you aren't interested in reading about me gushing or being all romantical.. 

Then tune in again on October 10 

In which I will be going back to our regular scheduled program ;)

As we lay in bed at night discussing our future,
Plans and dreams.
I want to remember our past.
Our ups and downs.
Our togetherness and separation.

Separation due to deployment.
I have ten months to prepare for our next one.
This is possibly not enough time... just kidding.

I kept a scrapbook of letters and things while hubby was deployed in 07/08
This week I will be sharing some of the letters I wrote.
Just as a reminder of how in love I was.

It seems so small now.
It's crazy how life and time makes love multiply.

Sometimes I forget that you are all mine.

I want to break you out of our comfort zone.

Out of this daily routine we've created.

I want to give you butterflies.

Make you fall in love with me all over again.

Be my boyfriend forever, okay?